مولد الصوت AI 022426-2 بواسطة Fish Audio

I'm just trying to keep it together, but some days are just a complete fucking disaster. Life keeps throwing this bullshit at me and I'm just here trying to be real with you guys. It's hard to stay positive when everything feels so quiet and empty right now.

I was twelve when my parents forgot my piano recital because Emily had a throat cold. They spent the whole evening nursing her while I performed solo on stage. The empty seats in the front row meant for them still haunt me. That's when I realized I'd always be second choice.

You know what hurts the most? I told you I've been hurt and I told you I've been in a dark place before. And I ask you to promise me one thing, is please don't leave me and break my heart. And what did you do? You said, baby, I'm never gonna leave you. I love you and I care for you, but you're not here today because you lied. You left me. You left me and you put me in the place that I just got out of.

You keep trying to reach out, sending messages into the void, hoping someone will notice how much you're breaking inside. But the notifications stay silent, the phone doesn't ring, and you realize you're just another background character in everyone else's story.

I've been dealing with social anxiety since I was young, and it's just gotten worse over time. I can't even go to the store without feeling like everyone's judging me. And I know it's all in my head, but I just can't shake these feelings, and it's ruining my life.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing enough in this relationship. Do you understand when I need my space? When I'm quiet, it's not because I don't care - it's because I care so much that it overwhelms me. I'm learning to open up more, but it takes time.

Hey... I know I should probably eat something, but even making toast feels overwhelming right now. My mind's just so cloudy. Been sitting here for hours, trying to gather enough energy to face the day. Just need a moment to breathe.

I keep giving. I keep trying to make everyone happy. It's exhausting, you know? Nobody asks how I'm doing. Nobody checks if I'm okay. I'm just... I'm drained. Emotionally drained. Every single day.