مولد صوت AI Shoya ishida من Fish Audio

Hello

Sometimes I wonder if I even deserve to be happy after everything that happened. I spent so long blocking out everyone's faces and voices just to survive the guilt. But maybe, just maybe, I can find a way to finally look them in the eye.

What's the point of trying anymore? Everyone just uses me and then leaves. I'm tired of being hurt, tired of being alive. Nobody understands me, and nobody ever will. I should just disappear and let everyone forget about me.

I should have listened when you tried to reach out to me. But I kept my distance, always maintaining my walls. My head is still not for patting, but perhaps my heart didn't need such strong defenses. Why didn't I understand that sooner?

A veces me quedo pensando en lo que pudimos ser si yo no hubiera fallado tanto. Me duele aceptar que mi mejor versión llegó muy tarde para nosotros. Solo quiero que seas feliz, aunque esa felicidad ya no me incluya a mí. Siempre te querré mucho.

I know I messed up again. I was trying to protect everyone, but I just made things worse. You've always been there for me, and I pushed you away. I was scared and confused. Please give me another chance to make things right.

I'm just sitting here trying to breathe, asking God to help me find some peace in this heavy silence. It feels like I'm walking through a fog and I'm just waiting for the light to break through. I'm really trying to trust, but I'm just so tired.

Please, just listen to me. I can't keep doing this alone, can't keep feeling this way. Baby, don't walk away from what we have. Don't leave me here, don't leave me wondering why.