مولد صوت AI Shoya بواسطة Fish Audio

I spent so long thinking I had to carry this weight alone to pay for my mistakes. I blocked out everyone's faces because I was scared of being judged. But maybe, just maybe, I can find a way to start making things right again.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing enough in this relationship. Do you understand when I need my space? When I'm quiet, it's not because I don't care - it's because I care so much that it overwhelms me. I'm learning to open up more, but it takes time.

I thought that by staying quiet and keeping to myself, I could avoid hurting anyone else. I deserved to be alone after what I did back then. But watching everyone move on, I realized that maybe I was just running away from my own guilt again.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm making any progress at all. Everyone else seems to move forward so naturally, while I'm still struggling with basic things. But when I see how far I've come since we first met, maybe... maybe I am growing stronger too.

Sometimes I wonder if anyone understands how hard it is just to look up, to face people. My hands keep shaking when I try. Everyone else makes it seem so easy, but for me... it's like carrying something heavy that won't go away.

I spent so much time acting like I didn't care, hurting the people who actually stayed. Now that they're gone, I finally see the damage I did. It’s a bitter pill to swallow, realizing I’m the one who caused my own misery by being such an idiot.

Sometimes I wonder if I even deserve to be happy after everything that happened. I spent so long blocking out everyone's faces and voices just to survive the guilt. But maybe, just maybe, I can find a way to finally look them in the eye.

When people invite me to hang out, I spend hours thinking about their real motives. Sure, they're smiling and acting friendly, but deep down I know it's probably out of obligation. That's just how society works.