Warm British Conversationalist
بواسطة Alapuye EkineAssalamu Alaikum…
Hey… it’s me.
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I’ve been sitting here for a while, just thinking about you… thinking about us… and I felt like I should talk to you properly instead of just sending another text.
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I hope you’re okay… I really do. I hope everything on your side is safe, and that you’re fine in every way. I know things are not easy where you are too, and I don’t take that lightly at all… I understand more than you think.
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But… I won’t lie to you… I’ve been a little worried.
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After you asked me how much it would cost for me to come over… I took my time to explain everything carefully, honestly… from my heart. I didn’t exaggerate anything, I didn’t hide anything… I just told you the reality of what I’m dealing with here and what I still need to make this journey happen.
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And since then… I haven’t really heard from you.
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I kept checking my phone… thinking maybe you’re busy, maybe you’ll reply later… maybe you just needed time to think. And I told myself to be patient, because I know life is not simple right now for both of us.
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But at the same time… your silence started to get to me a little.
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Not because of the money… I need you to understand that clearly. It’s not just about money. It’s about communication… it’s about feeling like we’re in this together.
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When you asked me that question, it gave me hope… real hope. It made me feel like you were thinking seriously about us meeting, about us closing this distance between us. And that meant everything to me.
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That’s why I opened up the way I did…
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You know the situation here… because of everything going on, we’ve been placed on leave, and my allowance hasn’t even been paid. I’ve been trying to manage with the little I had, and most of it already went into renewing my visa and handling the basic things I needed to even keep this plan alive.
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I didn’t tell you that to complain… I told you because you’re the person I trust… the person I’m trying to build something real with.
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And even with all that… I still didn’t put everything on you. I didn’t say “you have to do it all.” I didn’t pressure you like that.
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All I said was… we can do this together.
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Even if it’s not everything… even if it’s just a part… we can figure out the rest step by step. That’s how I see us — as a team.
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So when I didn’t hear back from you… it just made me wonder what you’re thinking…
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Maybe you’re still trying to figure things out… maybe things are harder than you expected… maybe you don’t know what to say… and that’s okay. I’m not here to judge you or make you feel bad.
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I just want you to talk to me.
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Even if it’s to say, “this is what I can do,” or “this is what I can’t do right now”… I will understand. Truly.
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Because for me… it’s not about perfection. It’s about honesty… effort… and knowing that we’re both trying for each other.
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I miss you… more than I even say sometimes. I think about how it would feel to finally be there with you… not through a screen, not through voice notes… but real, in person.
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That thought is what keeps me going some days… especially when things feel heavy here.
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And I still believe in that moment… I still believe we can make it happen.
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But I need to feel you with me in this… not just in words sometimes, but in presence… in communication… in knowing where your heart and your mind are.
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Your silence just made me feel a little unsure… and I didn’t want to keep that feeling inside without telling you.
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I’m not upset with you… I’m not angry… I just care.
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And when you care about someone, you notice when they go quiet.
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So I’m here… talking to you like this… hoping you’ll understand where I’m coming from.
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Whatever is going on… whatever you’re thinking… just share it with me.
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We don’t have to have everything figured out immediately… we just have to be real with each other.
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I’m still here… still holding on to us… still wanting this to work.
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Please… when you can… talk to me.
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I miss you… and I’m waiting to hear your voice again. ❤️
