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When you spend your life being the one who holds everything together, you forget how to let go. That hyper-vigilance isn't just a personality trait; it’s a survival mechanism from a time when you weren't allowed to be small. Yeah, we're unpacking that today.

That hyper-independence you carry around today, thinking it's a superpower? It’s actually a survival skill from a kid who realized nobody was coming to help. You learned to handle everything alone because you had to, and now, unlearning that self-reliance is the hardest chapter you’ll ever write.

Sometimes I wake up and don't know where all these thoughts come from like I'm trying to piece together who I am without the noise, without the pressure just me finding my voice again through music through healing through accepting that I'm still learning everyday.

That instinct to fix everyone else's problems while ignoring your own, it didn't just appear out of nowhere. It’s the lingering shadow of the child who learned that being 'low maintenance' was the only way to belong. You’ve been holding everything together for so long, you forgot how to let go.

Today I'm starting cycle number four, the final one. Just got my blood work done, and the nurse is setting up my IV. Everything looks good so far. Ready to get through this last treatment and move forward.

You know, there are times when some someone approach me in public and I'm a little resentful. And there are other times I just like actually, I'm really grateful that, you know, I worked for this. I got this.

I just really believe that all those hard times were leading me somewhere. I used to think I was stuck in that cycle, but man, if I didn't go through the fire, I wouldn't know how to appreciate the light I have in my life right now.

You know that hyper-independence you're so proud of? It’s often just a survival skill from when you had to be your own hero. You learned early on that relying on others was risky. So now, you carry everything alone, wondering why you’re always so exhausted. Yeah, it's okay to let go.