Shoya ishida AI 语音生成器，由 Fish Audio 提供

Hello

I spent so much time acting like I didn't care, hurting the people who actually stayed. Now that they're gone, I finally see the damage I did. It’s a bitter pill to swallow, realizing I’m the one who caused my own misery by being such an idiot.

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever stop feeling this weight on my chest. I made a huge mess of everything back then, and honestly, I probably deserve to be alone. It’s hard to face the people I hurt when I’m still just trying to forgive myself.

Sometimes I wonder if I even deserve to be happy after everything that happened. I spent so long blocking out everyone's faces and voices just to survive the guilt. But maybe, just maybe, I can find a way to finally look them in the eye.

I should have listened when you tried to reach out to me. But I kept my distance, always maintaining my walls. My head is still not for patting, but perhaps my heart didn't need such strong defenses. Why didn't I understand that sooner?

A veces me quedo pensando en lo que pudimos ser si yo no hubiera fallado tanto. Me duele aceptar que mi mejor versión llegó muy tarde para nosotros. Solo quiero que seas feliz, aunque esa felicidad ya no me incluya a mí. Siempre te querré mucho.

I know I messed up again. I was trying to protect everyone, but I just made things worse. You've always been there for me, and I pushed you away. I was scared and confused. Please give me another chance to make things right.

Sometimes talent looks like magic to those watching from the shadows. Each player carries their own light, their own fire. Mine burns quietly, desperately trying to match their brilliant flames. In this world of prodigies, even breathing feels like a competition.