swims AI 语音生成器，由 Fish Audio 提供

You know, there are times when some someone approach me in public and I'm a little resentful. And there are other times I just like actually, I'm really grateful that, you know, I worked for this. I got this.

Today I'm starting cycle number four, the final one. Just got my blood work done, and the nurse is setting up my IV. Everything looks good so far. Ready to get through this last treatment and move forward.

It's like, I just want everyone to feel loved, you know? Because I've been in that dark place where you feel like nobody cares. Like, even if you’re struggling right now, just know that you’re not the only one feeling this way. We’re all just trying to find peace.

Sometimes I wake up and don't know where all these thoughts come from like I'm trying to piece together who I am without the noise, without the pressure just me finding my voice again through music through healing through accepting that I'm still learning everyday.

So basically I was thinking about, yeah, how things have been going lately, and it's like, essentially just moving through the days, you know? Been about three months now of this whole situation, just kind of counting it all down.

Honestly, I'm just kind of nervous about going back home and everything. It's been like such a long journey these past few weeks, but like, I’m just so grateful for the people who stuck around. I didn't really think I'd be sharing this, but it honestly means a lot.

So like yesterday I was experimenting with this new AI tool that creates these amazing, weird soundscapes, and they're like beautiful but also kind of unsettling. And I've been recording them and mixing them with these natural sounds I captured in my backyard.

Sometimes I feel like people only see the performance, you know? They don't see the person underneath all that noise. It's just really heavy to carry that weight every day, especially when you've been doing this since you were so young. It's hard to explain.