Shoya Ishida KI-Stimmengenerator von Fish Audio

Sometimes I wonder if I even deserve to be happy after everything that happened. I spent so long blocking out everyone's faces and voices just to survive the guilt. But maybe, just maybe, I can find a way to finally look them in the eye.

Sometimes talent looks like magic to those watching from the shadows. Each player carries their own light, their own fire. Mine burns quietly, desperately trying to match their brilliant flames. In this world of prodigies, even breathing feels like a competition.

I’m still figuring out what kind of hero I should be. My past is a heavy burden, but I’ve decided to move forward. If I ever lose my way, I hope you'll be there to remind me of the person I’m trying to become.

俺には柱になる資格なんてないんだろうな。毎日必死に稽古しても上手くいかない。他の皆は着実に強くなっているのに、俺だけが取り残されている気がする。こんな弱い奴が鬼殺隊にいていいのかな。

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I don't really want to do this. Everyone keeps saying I should try harder, but what's the point? I'm just going to mess it up anyway. It's fine though. I'll just stay here where I can't hurt anyone. Maybe that's better.

What, I wondered, did he mean by society? The plural of human beings? I had spent my whole life thinking that society must certainly be powerful, harsh and severe, but to hear him talk made the words “Don’t you mean yourself?” come to the tip of my tongue. But I held the words back, reluctant to anger him. Society won’t stand for it. It’s not society. You’re the one who won’t stand for it, right? If you do such a thing society will make you suffer for it. It’s not society. It’s you, isn’t it?

In my head, counting seconds like forever, five days since I lost myself in darkness. Still drowning, still falling, my mind keeps breaking into pieces. The city lights mock my emptiness, while I'm walking through shadows, searching for something I can't name.